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Ok, so as if I don’t have a lot of stuff going on with my life right now, I had a big self esteem bust.  I was talking to this guy, just casual conversation, and he proceeded to tell me that he wasn’t into “bigger girls”.  I never really thought I was that overweight.  I knew that I needed to lose some lbs. but then when someone tells you that it was like woah, am I really that heavy?  I shouldn’t dwell on it, if you don’t like me for me then kiss my a$$, but it still doesn’t make you feel good.  So I’m now more motivated.  I started a chart in my bathroom to weigh myself once a week to track my progress with a pen hanging from it.  I joined a local biggest loser contest, and I went through my cupboard and got rid of all the junky stuff.  I’m also going to post weekly pictures of myself (hope no one gets offended), so I can see the changes happening to myself.  Once I reach my weight I am going to treat myself to a makeover and a night on the town.  I hope I see the guy so I can just look at him and say LOOK AT ME NOW! 

So in less than two days, my husband is moving out.  Kind of bitter sweet I guess.  I am going to miss having him around, and the financial aspect because lord knows I do not make tons of money, but I am looking at it as a fresh start.  It’s kind of motivating and making me want to actually lose weight.  I feel like I have more of a reason, and I will be happier.  I won’t be as stressed and therefore I don’t think I will eat all the time (lets hope).  So I’m starting this new journey off at 193 lbs, and hopefuly soon will be much less.